Could Less Really Be More?

I never understood it before, what happens when you lose your sex drive and your partner doesn't.

This is new to me, the feeling that sex is just not worth the effort. I don't understand it at all. And it's not just sex with my current partner, it's any kind of sex with anyone. It just seems like such a waste of energy and time.

Am I depressed? Probably. Do these feelings feel valid anyway? Definitely.

I am finally really understanding how being connected to someone, sharing a bed with them, sharing details of your day, and thinking about the future, has an intimacy all of its own that can be as fulfilling as sex.

Recently, I haven't been feeling excited about the future. I've been feeling pretty disconnected from everything a lot of the time.

Last year I ended a relationship when I felt this way. This year I'm not going to. I remember that these feelings passed and I felt better after a couple of months. So I'm seeing if I can ride it out. Maybe in a month I'll feel different. Maybe I'll feel the same. How does love survive this? What if this is my new "normal?" Those are scary thoughts, and I don't have any answers.